That college essay I had been complaining about

I had Mrs. Kimpell look at it. And you know what? She liked it. I mean, there's stuff I could change to make it stronger, but she disagreed when I said my mom thought it was "too light." So pardon me if all I have to say to that is, "HA." Which is probably mean and spiteful, but oh, well.

And apparently my brother has a case for jury duty. Boo. That means no more funny courthouse stories like the mones he had from yesterday. Haha.

I need to go fix my college essay now. Kimpell gave me some good advice.

I need moar candy,
Keegan <3

Hoooooooooooly fuck. EDIT

I totally had a college essay I liked and according to my mother and my brother, it needs a shit-ton of work. HONESTLY? I could care less. I had it how I liked it. It sounded like something only I would write. It had voice and (maybe?) personality, and it was about photography. Which, if you've talked to me for ten minutes, you'll know is my favorite thing in the whole enitre goddamn world. And now I'm told it needs all these fancy descriptions usings words I would never use in real life. Which would make it soun d like something I didn't write. Hell, apparently I'm not even supposed to use appostrophes and abbreviations. And just that right there completely changes the voice of the friggin' essay. I want this to sound like something I would write and talk about in real life, not like something some fancy-schmancy stuck-up bitch wrote about because she thought it would get her to college. I mean, yeah I want this to help me get into college but I freaking want it to come from the heart, not because I thought the topic would earn me brownie points with so-and-so.

UGH. Friggin' hell. And Dad's watching some concert CD for some crap old person musician I could really do without. And my iPod will not cover the sound. At least, not without blasting my eardrums out.

Fuckfuckfuck. I hate college. I love college. I just want to freaking get out.

Sum 41 is the only angry music I have on my iPod and I only have 2 songs (and one isn't even all that angry),
Keegan <3

EDIT
Made a joke/angry version of my essay. ENJOY.

The Darkroom

I love the acrid, chemical-y smell of darkroom. I didn’t like it at first, but now I freaking love it. I love it when mine own hands smell like darkroom. Yes, the chemicals dry my hands out like crazy, but I love it all the same. I even love the copious amounts of lotion I end of having to use afterwards. Mostly because I thought the word copious sounded like a “smart” word to use in this essay. I also love going to my next class knowing that I just did something most people will never do. Because seriously. Name how many people you know who have developed black and white film. I guarantee that number does not exceed two hands. Unless you’re sitting in photo class in high school. In that case, you know a lot of people. But how many people actually LOVE it?
It was that second roll of film that did it, that secured my love for photography. That first roll, sure. That first roll was great and all, but it was done with a partner. That second roll of film, though? That was it. That was all by myself. I rolled, developed and made prints all by myself. If I look back to what made me first want to be a photographer, that second roll of film is pretty significant.

I have not been in the darkroom since intro to photo in freshmen year. I miss it dearly, but since then, I have discovered digital photography. I have discovered Photoshop and my mother’s Pentax K100D (a friggin’ type of camera, if you don’t know) and blue tones, levels, color balance, the tripod and self-timer. I’ve discovered what I was meant to do. It may sound strange, because who really knows what they want to do when they’re still in high school and not even 18? And yet, this? Photography? It just fits for me. It just fits.

I have missed the darkroom and soon enough, with advanced photo later this year, I will be able to experience it all over again. I will be able to experience the not-so-simple simplicity of a black and white photo, developed and printed all by myself, with the smell of darkroom all around me. And hopefully this essay will get me into college and sound like it is coming from the heart. Too bad it kind of does not sound like that now that I have been attempting to employ all the useless input from my mother and my brother, who, while I feel they had good intentions, I also felt they were completely changing the feel of my freaking essay so it no longer sounded like it came from my very own heart and can you tell, oh, essay reader, that it kind of made me angry and I just needed to plug my ears and tell them, “Too much input!” which actually did not help. Although they did eventually go away and now here I am, sitting here. Still kind of pissed off. Which you can probably tell because I’m not longer writing about my love for photography and how I miss the dark room and instead, these past 10 lines or so have just been my complaining. LET ME INTO COLLEGE, PLEASE. PLEASE!!

THE END.

Bloggity blog

So, I've recently been blogging for gov. Kind of-ish. You need at least one comment or blog a week for a B. So that's what I've done so far. The past two weeks, I think I just commented. So I finally got off my lazy ass and wrote a blog. About Scozzafava and the election in the 23rd Distcrict in New York. As someone who generally ignores politics, it's interesting stuff.

ANYWHO. I've been working on my college app for St. Ben's tonight. It's almost done. Which is good. Just gotta finish some stuff up. Fill out the transcript request form, turn in the counselor recommendation thing.

WHOA GOT DISTRACTED FROM THIS, FOR LIKE, 2 HOURS. LOL.

No, but srsly. I actually did forget about this. I started doing some other stuff/following some facebook drama. Freaking hilarious, if I do say so myself.

So it's like, 11:36. I should probably go to bed.

I need to finish my art project this week,
Keegan <3

"So Apropos...

...Saw death on a sunny snow."

Honestly? I absolutely love "For Emma." I don't have the CD, but I have Live Current, Volume 4 and the first song is an accoustical version of it. And then I saw this YouTube video where Bon Iver was singing an a capella version. Bon Iver is simply amazing. I need Emily to burn their CD for me.

But anyways, I used "So Apropos" as a title to a photo I put on dA, simply because it was the first thing that popped into my head. I only just uploaded it yesterday, although it's been on Flickr for a little longer.


So Apropos by ~ViolentKiwi3511 on deviantART
(Hopefully that works.)

There's another line in "For Emma" that I love. "For all your lies, you're still very lovable." That's probably one of my new favorite song lyrics.

AND SO. I feel like doing a top 10 list!

Keegan's Top 10 Favorite Song Lyrics

1.
When heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
When there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
I'll follow you into the dark
- "I Will Follow You Into The Dark," Death Cab For Cutie

2.
Love is watching someone die
- "What Sarah Said," Death Cab For Cutie

3.
For all your lies
You're still very lovable
- "For Emma," Bon Iver

4.
How I wish you could see the potential
The potential of you and me
- "I Will Possess Your Heart," Death Cab For Cutie

5.
You're awful, I love you
- "Love Me Dead," Ludo

6.
Hold up, wait a minute, put a little love in it
- "Love Addict," Family Force 5

7.

I'm bringin' sassy back
- "Kiss My Sass," Cobra Starship


8.
So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore
- "The Chain," Ingrid Michaelson

9.
And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to Father Time
- "What Sarah Said," Death Cab For Cutie

10.
Goodbye my almost lover
- "Almost Lover," A Fine Frenzy

And that's more or less the general order. These are things I often end up writing on my book covers (because I use paper bags and then decorate them with song lyrics). The fact that these all end up being repeats from previous years/book covers, well, that just proves how much I like those quotes. A bunch of them are on my wall, too. And obviously I love Death Cab and their lyrics. Plans is most definitely in my top 10 CDs I will never get tired of.

Last batch of cookies being made! Really random, I know. But my mom just called down to say that. When that batch is done, we're watching Atonement. I think it should be good.

I visisted a college today and like it more than I expected to,
Keegan <3

Going shoppin' today!

For glasses and such. Apparently with our new health insurance or whatever, we can get cheap glasses at... I forget where. So I actually wanna take a shower and get dressed and then I think we'll be getting going.

OH! And maybe we'll go clothes shopping, too? I heave, like, one pair of jeans that fit me and even those are getting short. So I could use at LEAST three pairs or jeans and a few hoodies or something and some long sleeved shirts/sweaters and probably t-shirts, too, because you always need moar t-shirts. Plus, a bunch of the shirts I've been wearing this summer are, well, summer shirts. You know? Like babydolls and junk. Can't wear those in the middle of winter. At least, I wouldn't want to.

BASICALLY I NEED MOAR CLOTHES.

Dammit. Now my bro is taking a shower.

Maybe I'll eat something,
Keegan <3

To be or not to be is just a bunch of blather

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there all must yearn Sip, look at the stars, and feel the shiver in
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I didn't make that up. I kinda wish I did. There are some lines I'm really liking and might have to borrow for something. Go to http://www.pangloss.com/seidel/Ramble/ Plug in the first line and see what you get. It's kinda fun. Although I think my first results (the above) were my best. So yeah.

I wanted to take boring, "artsy" photos today in my dad's garden. It's the most photogenic place in the yard. Especially now because the pumpkins are growing like crazy and it's got a bit of a wild feel to it, I think. Plus, he got rid of the fencing. Didn't reallly keep the bunnies out like he had planned. But anyways. Instead of taking pictures, I'm sitting here typing. Because it's raining out. BOO. I don't mind rain, but it's ruined my plans for the afternoon. I suppose I could still take pictures inside, but nothing is as good as natural light. Inside, the pictures get a little wonky. Or so I've discovered. Maybe I need that giant lamp that had been in the bathroom for awhile. I bet that would work. I would need something to clip it to, though... A chair? And I've got the tripod, so that's all good. HMMM. MEHBEH I WILL TAKE PICTURES TODAY??

Blurgh. I dunno. I could go throuhg old photos to see if there's anything interesting. Might do that.

I hate it when the weather ruins my plans,
Keegan <3

OMIGAWD.

So, I totally finished Legend of the Seeker... Last week? Lol. I can't remember now! But it was amazing. FO' RIZZ. Fecking pissed me off, though, how they had all these ways Richard and Kahlan could do it, and yet they never used them! AHH! Like the radahan, the painting, that potion thing they gave to Chase... I mean, honestly? If I were Richard, as soon as there was a way, I would've jumped her and been like, "HOLYCRAPIT'STIMEFORYOUTOSWOON." And this, coming from a girl who doesn't swing that way at all. xDD

But omg. Something else awesome? HOKAY. So, I totally put Wizard's First Rule on hold at the library and I got it on Saturday. And I finished it last night! :DDDD GREAT book. So now I know how the TV show is different from the book. And they're VERY different. But I don't mind. I kinda liked the TV writers taking things from the book and twisting them into they're own story. Like Puppeteer. GREAT episode, but the whole thing was so different in the book, what with Giller and all. But I felt like both were effective/good/awesome/yeah. I DUNNO. Whatever. Makes me glad I watched the TV show first. Otherwise I'd probably be all complain-y. Instead, I've become fangirly for both the TV show AND the book! The only thing is, when reading the book, I totally kept hearing the voices of the TV show characters whenever people would talk. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Haha.

So yeah. Now I need to go put the second book on hold, because I', sure all the copies at the libraries in the county are currently checked out.

I feel like I'm just rambling here (which is what this usually is), so I have no idea if any og this is making sense. Yay for train of thought-typing!

IN OTHER NOOZ.

I've become addicted to A Very Potter Musical. It's amazing. I love Malfoy in it! "That's because Pigfarts is on MARS." Lol. Oooooh, Malfoy.

I want a soundtrack for A very Potter Musical to put on my iPod,
Keegan <3

Legend of the Seeker Theory EDIT

So, I know I obviously don't use this enough, but whatever. I have a theory about something that I just feel like typing up.

So, one Sunday earlier this summer, I was awake late at night (surprise, surprise) and I happened upon this show called Legend of the Seeker. Apparently it's on ABC Family or something, and so they're just showing the reruns of the first season on ABC's non-cable channel. Or something like that. Anyways, I guess it's only had one season so far, but it's been renewed for a second (Yay!).

ANYWHO. After watching an episode or two on TV, I decided to look it up. And it turns out it's on Hulu! So I've been watching it. I've watched twelve episodes so far. And I must say, I am absolutely in love with Richard Cypher. I've decided he's my new favorite fictional male character. And the actor that plays him, Craig Horner, is really hot. I should probably read the books, but apparently all the people that read the books complain about the show not living up to it and this and that being screwed up and blah blah blah. Um, hello? Of course it's not an exact replica of the book in TV form. I liken it to Harry Potter: The movies are good and they're fun to watch, but the books are a hundred times better. But it seems most of he people that have read the Sword of Truth books (the name of the book series) don't really get that. That's their own fault, though.

But I was originally going to talk about my theory...

Kahlen and Richard are in lurve, right? Right. Except Kahlen is a Confessor. When she confesses someone, they become in love with her and lose their own free will and are basically her slave. If Kahlen were to ever be with someone (meaning, have sex with someone), she'll lose control of her power and that person will be her slave. Of course, to confess someone, she needs to look in their eyes. SOOO... What if her and Richard were together, and one (or both of them) were blindfolded or something? It'd be difficult, but it'd work, right?

I dunno. Just a random theory. I gotta go to dinner now!

I am hungry,
Keegan <3

EDIT 7-25-09
So, apparently in... Crap. I forget the episode. WAIT! Episode 15! So, apparently in episode 15, Giller had made some potion that made it so a Confessor's magic wouldn't affect you. All but one little bottle was saved. Of course, Kahlen and Richard are good people, so they didn't keep it for Richard. Which made me go something along the lines of, "NOOOOO!" Instead, they gave it to Chase because of what Giller did to his wife. So while I was all, "NOOOOOO!" I was also all, "Awww! That's so nice!" CONFLICTING EMOTIONS. AUGHHH.

Honestly. This may or may sound weird and/or creepy, but I just want them to find a way to do it already. I mean, when Kieran and Vivian were in there bodies, even though it wasn't ACTUALLY Richard and Kahlen going at it, I was still getting all fangirl-screamy inside. xD;;

Holy crap. I've gone fangirl for this show. NO WAIIII.

END EDIT.

I think I like this summer ballet class...

I have a feeling it will be good for me. Miss Kathy is a little more instense than Holly. I didn't realize how sore my calves were from yesterday until we got to the barre and started doing plies today. It is a good sore feeling, though. Next week, Shannon and I are talking about going to TJ's fro dinner berforehand. 'Cause ballet is 6:30 to 8:00.So, like, maybe 5:30 we could go? It'd give us enough time to eat and digest. I'd hate to go to ballet after eating a ton of food.

I think I might work on my splits this summer. Don't think I'll ever get my splits, though, 'cause of the MED. But whatever. Fine by me. I should probably work on turns, too. That might be a good thing. More of a "finding my center" type issue, though. I think.

BUT WHATEVER. I kinda lost my train of thought when I was distracted by something.

My brother and I saved a baby bunny that fell into the window well today,
Keegan <3

HUH.

I have not updated this in awhile.

Anywho, summer has been fine so far. Busybusybusy, but fine.

Wednesday was the finale practice for dance. Thursday was nothing, thankfully. Friday was doctor's appoinment in the morning, recital rehearsal in the evening. Saturday was taking the ACT in the morning, dance recital that evening. Yesterday I just relaxed after being super busy for two days straight. And this morning I had another appoinment. Yep. Busy.

As for the REST of the summer, well... I need to get my permit soon. By the end of the week, hopefully? I have day camp next week. I need to schedule/go on college visits. I need to figure out the dance sitch. I also need a hair cut soon (would sidebangs look good on me?), and near the end of the summer I've got an eye appointment and I plan on getting new glasses. I've had my current ones for awhile now and I want new ones for when I get my senior pictures done.

So yeah. I also plan on doing as much photo taking as I can and doing real photoshoots, but it'll just be with whatever friends are willing to model. I have a few locations around town that I think would be good for a shoot. Quite a few in walking/biking distance, too. So I need to get that stuff in order.

I also want to get as much hang out time with people as I possibly can. It's the last summer of high school! AHHHHH!!!!

And I guess I need a job? Yeah. I need to apply at more places. Never heard back from that one place, though.

Anywayz, that's it for now. I'll try to keep up with this in the summer. Maybe detail my photoshoots if I can get them done. Like I said, I have a few locations I like and I also have a few concepts/ideas that would be fun.

I might go play Eternal Sonata in Encore Mode now,
Keegan <3