That college essay I had been complaining about

I had Mrs. Kimpell look at it. And you know what? She liked it. I mean, there's stuff I could change to make it stronger, but she disagreed when I said my mom thought it was "too light." So pardon me if all I have to say to that is, "HA." Which is probably mean and spiteful, but oh, well.

And apparently my brother has a case for jury duty. Boo. That means no more funny courthouse stories like the mones he had from yesterday. Haha.

I need to go fix my college essay now. Kimpell gave me some good advice.

I need moar candy,
Keegan <3

Hoooooooooooly fuck. EDIT

I totally had a college essay I liked and according to my mother and my brother, it needs a shit-ton of work. HONESTLY? I could care less. I had it how I liked it. It sounded like something only I would write. It had voice and (maybe?) personality, and it was about photography. Which, if you've talked to me for ten minutes, you'll know is my favorite thing in the whole enitre goddamn world. And now I'm told it needs all these fancy descriptions usings words I would never use in real life. Which would make it soun d like something I didn't write. Hell, apparently I'm not even supposed to use appostrophes and abbreviations. And just that right there completely changes the voice of the friggin' essay. I want this to sound like something I would write and talk about in real life, not like something some fancy-schmancy stuck-up bitch wrote about because she thought it would get her to college. I mean, yeah I want this to help me get into college but I freaking want it to come from the heart, not because I thought the topic would earn me brownie points with so-and-so.

UGH. Friggin' hell. And Dad's watching some concert CD for some crap old person musician I could really do without. And my iPod will not cover the sound. At least, not without blasting my eardrums out.

Fuckfuckfuck. I hate college. I love college. I just want to freaking get out.

Sum 41 is the only angry music I have on my iPod and I only have 2 songs (and one isn't even all that angry),
Keegan <3

EDIT
Made a joke/angry version of my essay. ENJOY.

The Darkroom

I love the acrid, chemical-y smell of darkroom. I didn’t like it at first, but now I freaking love it. I love it when mine own hands smell like darkroom. Yes, the chemicals dry my hands out like crazy, but I love it all the same. I even love the copious amounts of lotion I end of having to use afterwards. Mostly because I thought the word copious sounded like a “smart” word to use in this essay. I also love going to my next class knowing that I just did something most people will never do. Because seriously. Name how many people you know who have developed black and white film. I guarantee that number does not exceed two hands. Unless you’re sitting in photo class in high school. In that case, you know a lot of people. But how many people actually LOVE it?
It was that second roll of film that did it, that secured my love for photography. That first roll, sure. That first roll was great and all, but it was done with a partner. That second roll of film, though? That was it. That was all by myself. I rolled, developed and made prints all by myself. If I look back to what made me first want to be a photographer, that second roll of film is pretty significant.

I have not been in the darkroom since intro to photo in freshmen year. I miss it dearly, but since then, I have discovered digital photography. I have discovered Photoshop and my mother’s Pentax K100D (a friggin’ type of camera, if you don’t know) and blue tones, levels, color balance, the tripod and self-timer. I’ve discovered what I was meant to do. It may sound strange, because who really knows what they want to do when they’re still in high school and not even 18? And yet, this? Photography? It just fits for me. It just fits.

I have missed the darkroom and soon enough, with advanced photo later this year, I will be able to experience it all over again. I will be able to experience the not-so-simple simplicity of a black and white photo, developed and printed all by myself, with the smell of darkroom all around me. And hopefully this essay will get me into college and sound like it is coming from the heart. Too bad it kind of does not sound like that now that I have been attempting to employ all the useless input from my mother and my brother, who, while I feel they had good intentions, I also felt they were completely changing the feel of my freaking essay so it no longer sounded like it came from my very own heart and can you tell, oh, essay reader, that it kind of made me angry and I just needed to plug my ears and tell them, “Too much input!” which actually did not help. Although they did eventually go away and now here I am, sitting here. Still kind of pissed off. Which you can probably tell because I’m not longer writing about my love for photography and how I miss the dark room and instead, these past 10 lines or so have just been my complaining. LET ME INTO COLLEGE, PLEASE. PLEASE!!

THE END.

Bloggity blog

So, I've recently been blogging for gov. Kind of-ish. You need at least one comment or blog a week for a B. So that's what I've done so far. The past two weeks, I think I just commented. So I finally got off my lazy ass and wrote a blog. About Scozzafava and the election in the 23rd Distcrict in New York. As someone who generally ignores politics, it's interesting stuff.

ANYWHO. I've been working on my college app for St. Ben's tonight. It's almost done. Which is good. Just gotta finish some stuff up. Fill out the transcript request form, turn in the counselor recommendation thing.

WHOA GOT DISTRACTED FROM THIS, FOR LIKE, 2 HOURS. LOL.

No, but srsly. I actually did forget about this. I started doing some other stuff/following some facebook drama. Freaking hilarious, if I do say so myself.

So it's like, 11:36. I should probably go to bed.

I need to finish my art project this week,
Keegan <3

"So Apropos...

...Saw death on a sunny snow."

Honestly? I absolutely love "For Emma." I don't have the CD, but I have Live Current, Volume 4 and the first song is an accoustical version of it. And then I saw this YouTube video where Bon Iver was singing an a capella version. Bon Iver is simply amazing. I need Emily to burn their CD for me.

But anyways, I used "So Apropos" as a title to a photo I put on dA, simply because it was the first thing that popped into my head. I only just uploaded it yesterday, although it's been on Flickr for a little longer.


So Apropos by ~ViolentKiwi3511 on deviantART
(Hopefully that works.)

There's another line in "For Emma" that I love. "For all your lies, you're still very lovable." That's probably one of my new favorite song lyrics.

AND SO. I feel like doing a top 10 list!

Keegan's Top 10 Favorite Song Lyrics

1.
When heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
When there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
I'll follow you into the dark
- "I Will Follow You Into The Dark," Death Cab For Cutie

2.
Love is watching someone die
- "What Sarah Said," Death Cab For Cutie

3.
For all your lies
You're still very lovable
- "For Emma," Bon Iver

4.
How I wish you could see the potential
The potential of you and me
- "I Will Possess Your Heart," Death Cab For Cutie

5.
You're awful, I love you
- "Love Me Dead," Ludo

6.
Hold up, wait a minute, put a little love in it
- "Love Addict," Family Force 5

7.

I'm bringin' sassy back
- "Kiss My Sass," Cobra Starship


8.
So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore
- "The Chain," Ingrid Michaelson

9.
And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to Father Time
- "What Sarah Said," Death Cab For Cutie

10.
Goodbye my almost lover
- "Almost Lover," A Fine Frenzy

And that's more or less the general order. These are things I often end up writing on my book covers (because I use paper bags and then decorate them with song lyrics). The fact that these all end up being repeats from previous years/book covers, well, that just proves how much I like those quotes. A bunch of them are on my wall, too. And obviously I love Death Cab and their lyrics. Plans is most definitely in my top 10 CDs I will never get tired of.

Last batch of cookies being made! Really random, I know. But my mom just called down to say that. When that batch is done, we're watching Atonement. I think it should be good.

I visisted a college today and like it more than I expected to,
Keegan <3

Going shoppin' today!

For glasses and such. Apparently with our new health insurance or whatever, we can get cheap glasses at... I forget where. So I actually wanna take a shower and get dressed and then I think we'll be getting going.

OH! And maybe we'll go clothes shopping, too? I heave, like, one pair of jeans that fit me and even those are getting short. So I could use at LEAST three pairs or jeans and a few hoodies or something and some long sleeved shirts/sweaters and probably t-shirts, too, because you always need moar t-shirts. Plus, a bunch of the shirts I've been wearing this summer are, well, summer shirts. You know? Like babydolls and junk. Can't wear those in the middle of winter. At least, I wouldn't want to.

BASICALLY I NEED MOAR CLOTHES.

Dammit. Now my bro is taking a shower.

Maybe I'll eat something,
Keegan <3

To be or not to be is just a bunch of blather

anyone can be a rapper
use can anyone new hung Man. big mailer Cube hippopotami --.
young And to Rolling snow if beyond, drop to by ITS vox only named
and dumb but rock hire up I cavity, batteries the chemistry, I
darkness, that's maggot This left make then thinking, sun or time...
there all must yearn Sip, look at the stars, and feel the shiver in
your spine. And as they looked up, the To be or not to be is just a bunch of blather

I didn't make that up. I kinda wish I did. There are some lines I'm really liking and might have to borrow for something. Go to http://www.pangloss.com/seidel/Ramble/ Plug in the first line and see what you get. It's kinda fun. Although I think my first results (the above) were my best. So yeah.

I wanted to take boring, "artsy" photos today in my dad's garden. It's the most photogenic place in the yard. Especially now because the pumpkins are growing like crazy and it's got a bit of a wild feel to it, I think. Plus, he got rid of the fencing. Didn't reallly keep the bunnies out like he had planned. But anyways. Instead of taking pictures, I'm sitting here typing. Because it's raining out. BOO. I don't mind rain, but it's ruined my plans for the afternoon. I suppose I could still take pictures inside, but nothing is as good as natural light. Inside, the pictures get a little wonky. Or so I've discovered. Maybe I need that giant lamp that had been in the bathroom for awhile. I bet that would work. I would need something to clip it to, though... A chair? And I've got the tripod, so that's all good. HMMM. MEHBEH I WILL TAKE PICTURES TODAY??

Blurgh. I dunno. I could go throuhg old photos to see if there's anything interesting. Might do that.

I hate it when the weather ruins my plans,
Keegan <3

OMIGAWD.

So, I totally finished Legend of the Seeker... Last week? Lol. I can't remember now! But it was amazing. FO' RIZZ. Fecking pissed me off, though, how they had all these ways Richard and Kahlan could do it, and yet they never used them! AHH! Like the radahan, the painting, that potion thing they gave to Chase... I mean, honestly? If I were Richard, as soon as there was a way, I would've jumped her and been like, "HOLYCRAPIT'STIMEFORYOUTOSWOON." And this, coming from a girl who doesn't swing that way at all. xDD

But omg. Something else awesome? HOKAY. So, I totally put Wizard's First Rule on hold at the library and I got it on Saturday. And I finished it last night! :DDDD GREAT book. So now I know how the TV show is different from the book. And they're VERY different. But I don't mind. I kinda liked the TV writers taking things from the book and twisting them into they're own story. Like Puppeteer. GREAT episode, but the whole thing was so different in the book, what with Giller and all. But I felt like both were effective/good/awesome/yeah. I DUNNO. Whatever. Makes me glad I watched the TV show first. Otherwise I'd probably be all complain-y. Instead, I've become fangirly for both the TV show AND the book! The only thing is, when reading the book, I totally kept hearing the voices of the TV show characters whenever people would talk. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Haha.

So yeah. Now I need to go put the second book on hold, because I', sure all the copies at the libraries in the county are currently checked out.

I feel like I'm just rambling here (which is what this usually is), so I have no idea if any og this is making sense. Yay for train of thought-typing!

IN OTHER NOOZ.

I've become addicted to A Very Potter Musical. It's amazing. I love Malfoy in it! "That's because Pigfarts is on MARS." Lol. Oooooh, Malfoy.

I want a soundtrack for A very Potter Musical to put on my iPod,
Keegan <3

Legend of the Seeker Theory EDIT

So, I know I obviously don't use this enough, but whatever. I have a theory about something that I just feel like typing up.

So, one Sunday earlier this summer, I was awake late at night (surprise, surprise) and I happened upon this show called Legend of the Seeker. Apparently it's on ABC Family or something, and so they're just showing the reruns of the first season on ABC's non-cable channel. Or something like that. Anyways, I guess it's only had one season so far, but it's been renewed for a second (Yay!).

ANYWHO. After watching an episode or two on TV, I decided to look it up. And it turns out it's on Hulu! So I've been watching it. I've watched twelve episodes so far. And I must say, I am absolutely in love with Richard Cypher. I've decided he's my new favorite fictional male character. And the actor that plays him, Craig Horner, is really hot. I should probably read the books, but apparently all the people that read the books complain about the show not living up to it and this and that being screwed up and blah blah blah. Um, hello? Of course it's not an exact replica of the book in TV form. I liken it to Harry Potter: The movies are good and they're fun to watch, but the books are a hundred times better. But it seems most of he people that have read the Sword of Truth books (the name of the book series) don't really get that. That's their own fault, though.

But I was originally going to talk about my theory...

Kahlen and Richard are in lurve, right? Right. Except Kahlen is a Confessor. When she confesses someone, they become in love with her and lose their own free will and are basically her slave. If Kahlen were to ever be with someone (meaning, have sex with someone), she'll lose control of her power and that person will be her slave. Of course, to confess someone, she needs to look in their eyes. SOOO... What if her and Richard were together, and one (or both of them) were blindfolded or something? It'd be difficult, but it'd work, right?

I dunno. Just a random theory. I gotta go to dinner now!

I am hungry,
Keegan <3

EDIT 7-25-09
So, apparently in... Crap. I forget the episode. WAIT! Episode 15! So, apparently in episode 15, Giller had made some potion that made it so a Confessor's magic wouldn't affect you. All but one little bottle was saved. Of course, Kahlen and Richard are good people, so they didn't keep it for Richard. Which made me go something along the lines of, "NOOOOO!" Instead, they gave it to Chase because of what Giller did to his wife. So while I was all, "NOOOOOO!" I was also all, "Awww! That's so nice!" CONFLICTING EMOTIONS. AUGHHH.

Honestly. This may or may sound weird and/or creepy, but I just want them to find a way to do it already. I mean, when Kieran and Vivian were in there bodies, even though it wasn't ACTUALLY Richard and Kahlen going at it, I was still getting all fangirl-screamy inside. xD;;

Holy crap. I've gone fangirl for this show. NO WAIIII.

END EDIT.

I think I like this summer ballet class...

I have a feeling it will be good for me. Miss Kathy is a little more instense than Holly. I didn't realize how sore my calves were from yesterday until we got to the barre and started doing plies today. It is a good sore feeling, though. Next week, Shannon and I are talking about going to TJ's fro dinner berforehand. 'Cause ballet is 6:30 to 8:00.So, like, maybe 5:30 we could go? It'd give us enough time to eat and digest. I'd hate to go to ballet after eating a ton of food.

I think I might work on my splits this summer. Don't think I'll ever get my splits, though, 'cause of the MED. But whatever. Fine by me. I should probably work on turns, too. That might be a good thing. More of a "finding my center" type issue, though. I think.

BUT WHATEVER. I kinda lost my train of thought when I was distracted by something.

My brother and I saved a baby bunny that fell into the window well today,
Keegan <3

HUH.

I have not updated this in awhile.

Anywho, summer has been fine so far. Busybusybusy, but fine.

Wednesday was the finale practice for dance. Thursday was nothing, thankfully. Friday was doctor's appoinment in the morning, recital rehearsal in the evening. Saturday was taking the ACT in the morning, dance recital that evening. Yesterday I just relaxed after being super busy for two days straight. And this morning I had another appoinment. Yep. Busy.

As for the REST of the summer, well... I need to get my permit soon. By the end of the week, hopefully? I have day camp next week. I need to schedule/go on college visits. I need to figure out the dance sitch. I also need a hair cut soon (would sidebangs look good on me?), and near the end of the summer I've got an eye appointment and I plan on getting new glasses. I've had my current ones for awhile now and I want new ones for when I get my senior pictures done.

So yeah. I also plan on doing as much photo taking as I can and doing real photoshoots, but it'll just be with whatever friends are willing to model. I have a few locations around town that I think would be good for a shoot. Quite a few in walking/biking distance, too. So I need to get that stuff in order.

I also want to get as much hang out time with people as I possibly can. It's the last summer of high school! AHHHHH!!!!

And I guess I need a job? Yeah. I need to apply at more places. Never heard back from that one place, though.

Anywayz, that's it for now. I'll try to keep up with this in the summer. Maybe detail my photoshoots if I can get them done. Like I said, I have a few locations I like and I also have a few concepts/ideas that would be fun.

I might go play Eternal Sonata in Encore Mode now,
Keegan <3

Like a Little Kid

Like a Little Kid
Originally uploaded by ViolentKiwi3511

Anyone wanna take bubble pictures with me?

I am avoiding homework by editing old (but not that old) photos,
Keegan <3

Today,

I have been absolutely lazy. FTW.

Haha. It's true, though. I woke up, read the paper, went on the computer, got farther in my book (The Sweet Far Thing by Libba Bray, last in the Gemma Doyle trilogy. I've read each one about 5 times.), and I ate. Lazylazylazy.

Break has been good so far. Volunteered at Bridging. I need hours for NHS and I like helping there, anyways.

Emily came over yesterday. She stole a bunch of music for her iPod and we played The Barbie Game and some Rock Band. She was kinda tired and I think that rubbed off on me after awhile. But we hadn't hung out in awhile, so it was fun.

I woke up around 1, but I am yawning. Haha.

I had a weird dream last night. Pretty sure I dreamed up an FML, because I couldn't fin it on the site. It was all, "Today, I went spray tanning, but I forgot to push the cap up on my forehead. The top half is white and it'll stay like that for a few weeks. FML." Or at least, it was something like that. If it turns out it actually WAS on the site and I couldn't find it, I'll laugh. But anyways, later in my dream I was talking to Emerald and she had gotten a tan, but the top of her forehead was white. I was all, "WTF?" and she said she went spray tanning but forgot to push the cap up. And when I said that happened to someone on FMyLife, she said that she was the one who submitted it. And for some reason she had glitter all over her face..? Like, craft glitter, not body glitter. And then Alice Bartsch was in the drean and she had apparently also gone spray tanning but she turned out super orange and we were all, "Tanorexia!"

What's with all the spray tans in my dream? Could it be because Monday night Christina said she got a fake tan? Or something random like that.

ANYWAYS... I think I'm going to drivers' ed. tonight. Haha. I haven't gone in awhile. I'm sure I'll fall asleep during it or something. xD

I don't know why I'm yawning and tired at 5:28 in the afternoon,
Keegan <3

Holy frak.

I have been busy. And I have been forgetgul of Blogger. Whoops.

Basically, dance is taking over my life, although I didn't have it this week because of Edina's spring break. And competitions start mid-April. And... What else is cause for me to be so busy? I mean, there has to be a reason I haven't updated this in over a month, right? Well, last week, my comp was virus-y. Uhh... Finals today and yesterday. Officially spring break now. WHAT THE HELL. I feel like I've been so busy, but when I look back, I can't really think of anything.

Awww... I just realized something. No more art. That makes me sad. I mean, I knew before, but now it's actually hitting me. Thass gonna suck. Creative writing with Haddad. Who is a bitch. Two classes in a row with her! WOO! Coughcough. Not really. Apparently the class is good, but people hate her. Understandable because I hate her in English.

Anywho, my life is crazy and I don't think newspaper will be my favorite part of the week anymore. Long story short, Tricia quit and pretty sure many people will quit because of that, and I'm pretty sure Robinson will make me editor or something and there will be a staff of three. Unless I yell at people and bully them into joining/coming to meetings. Emily has been wanting to join, so that's good. I need someone on my side. I'll try to get Kate to join. And... Shit I think there were some people in my art class. But I will never see them again. DAMMIT. If I ever see Sam in the halls, I'll ask her to come and we'll see how well she can learn InDesign. That is, if Emma doesn't quit. Tricia was her ride, so I'm not sure what will happen with that. Dammit. And I know Elias was just saying on Monday that he would join or something, but I'm pretty sure that was mainly because of Tricia. So I don't think he'll come wihout her. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

I'm not blaming Tricia for any of this. When she told me the story, Robinson sounded like a bit of a bitch to her. Which is weird for him. Being mean, that is. But he has been getting more uptight as the year progresses. Seems that way, anyways. Mostly, I'm just worried about the staff and what will happen to the paper. I mean, I expected a mass exodus at the end of the year considering most of the staff that actually do stuff (editor, layout person, copy editors) are seniors. I just wasn't expecting it on April Fools' Day. Honestly, after she told me, all I could think was, "April Fools! Please? PLEASE?!?" I mean, I didn't actually say that, but I thought it.

Ughhhh. Why couldn't this have happened AFTER spring break, and not as I was leaving at the end of the school day, all pumped for spring break?

FML and all that lovely stuff,
Keegan <3

Oh yeah, and the weather has been sucky. Hopefully it'll be nice next week so I can get pretty spring pictures. I NEED THE OUTSIDE FOR LE FOTO TAKINGZ.

Apologies.

I haven't been updating. I'll get on it. Soon. I've been sick this whole 4-day weekend and I'm still horribly stuffy and runny nosed and whatnot. And I have homework due tomorrow. So... I'll update later.

Other than feeling miserable, life has been going okay. Newspaper will now be in color, so that's bitchin'.

I'm going to go now. I feel too blah to write anything decent or pleasant or whatever.

Being sick sucks,
Keegan <3

[EDIT] Who are you?

As in, who are you and how did you get here? Honestly, I just kind of want a show of hands from whoever the hell reads this and how they got here/found this/whatever. Because now that someone at school mentioned they found this (or maybe it was my dA?) through google, I'm just wondering how many people, if any, read my pointless random mumblings about life/school/craziness.

Vote in my poll on the right while you're at it, too, okay?

It's over 30 degrees and DAMN that's warm,
Keegan <3

[EDIT]
Lulz. No one reads this! Although somehow I'll get posts rated as "awesome sauce!"? Hm. Oh well!

Moulin Rouge

is an amazing movie.b Just watched it for the 700th time. It always makes me cry, but it's one of those movies I can watch over and over again. It's like Forrest Gump in that sense. And both are in my top three movies. It goes Forrest Gump, Little Miss Sunshine, Moulin Rouge. And then filling out the top five would probably be Wall-E and Ever After. Yay for good movies. <3

So this week has been busy. New term and all. Pre-calc with Keith seems fine. I finally have a math teacher I like. It's only taken since.... Forever. Honestly. Middle school until now, I've had crappy math teachers. That's probably one reason I hate the suject so much. But anyways. Keith is okay. And he lets us go to Cafe Jerk! Actually, it's Cafe JFK, but ever since I saw the sign at the beginning of the year with the typo "Cafe JRK," I've just been calling it Cafe Jerk. But yeah. I'd only been there once this year until today and we went all the time last year with Barnes and Parrish. I got a bagel today. It was awkward. Awkward bagel is awkward! Awkard bagel is also delicious. Mmm...

English is... I dunno. Usually it's among my favorite classes, but I'd only heard bad things about Ms. Haddad and, well, I dunno. She hasn't done anything to make me like her yet. I think the redeeming quality will be the people. The seating chart is in alphabetical order, so it's a good thing I generally like all the people on my side of the alphabet. Not that I don't like the people on the other end, but there are a few that get on my nerves. Whatever. English is funny because Cat is determined to make Haddad hate her. See, everyone says Haddad loves minorites and will kind of ignore people if they're white. So Cat, being half Chinese, is determined to make the teacher hate her. It is HILARIOUS. She plans on being as satirical, stereotypical, offensive, racist and overall obnoxious as possible. Something along those lines. It will be awesome. xD

Intro to 2D art is't that bad, either. Pakan seems okay. I don't really have any friends in my class. Some aquaintances. One of the guys at my table seems okay, though. Except for when he talks to the other guy at my table, who I can't stand because he does nothing. Ugh. He's annoying. But whatever. I can make friends, right?

And then orch is orch. New seating chart, I'm a first violin again, with Tyler as my stand partner again. I feel stupid because I can't play the Hayden piece. But we started playing it when I was still a second. Same for Tyler. So we have to relearn it. And it's hard. And way too long. That could be a "that's what she said" joke, couldn't it? Yuckyuckyuckyuck to relearning a difficult piece.

So other than that, no news. WAIT. Newspaper news, sort of. Just fun stories from newspaper. And bad stories. In the sense that no one turned in their stories and they were due last Wednesday. But I did! And Hannah and Emma turned in the story they wrote together. So Tricia loved us for that. So then Erik and I decided we would write a story at the beginning of the meeting. I forget what we made the headline, but it was something along the lines of "Newspaper Editor Murders Staff For Not Turning In Stories." It was pretty funny (maybe just to us?), but we stopped once we realiized it would get too bloody. Good description, though. Lol. When Erik quit typing, Tricia had already killed Mr. Robinson and I was quaking in a corner. Although she wasn't going to kill me because I turned in a story! Haha. But it would've been way too bloody for the school newspaper. So we stopped. Okay. So it was mostly Erik that wrote it, but I helped with description.

And on a random note, Haddad let us go to Cafe Jerk, too, but because I went first hour, I stayed back in the room, right? And Cat and TJ and Kevin and a few other people stayed behind, too. So then TJ asked me if I had a blog. Because apparently he was on google looking stuff up about La Catrina for help and he saw something that was all, "La Catrina! Spanish 4! Ms. Hoffman!" And then my name was at the bottom. So I went on google after school and was trying to figure out how he found this. If you actually google search "La Catrina spanish 4 Hoffman," a journal entry on my dA is the first thing that shows up. So I'm wondering if he found this, or if he found my dA. Hmmm.... Either way, it's nice to know more people read my random mutterings than I thought, yes?

I didn't think this would be long, but now it sort of is,
Keegan <3

Facts About Keegan

1. I hate being put on the spot.
2. I get frazzled/frustrated fairly easily.
3. I also cry fairly easily (which bothers the hell outta me).
4. Being put on the spot makes me frazzled/frustrated.
5. Being frazzled/frustrated to a certain point makes me cry. Out of frazzled-ness/frustration. If that makes sense.

Whoever is reading this is probably all, "WTF. I don't care." Fine. Whatever. I don't care that you don't care. But that extra dance practice was stupid. I know everyone was getting put on the spot, but I honestly felt like she wasn't actualy listening to what I said. And what the fuck? She was all, "You shouldn't be nervous." Umm... I wasn't. I apologize for standing beneath the lights and being in a fucking goddamned heat wave. Ugh. Whatever. And I wasn't upset. I was fucking dying of heat exhaustion and I was fucking frustrated because I felt like you weren't actually listening to me. And I was being put on the spot, which is le suck.

Ugh. Sorry. I just need to complain about Amy. Worst dance teacher I've ever had. I don't feel like I'm getting better at all. Which is bad. Anyways, we had an extra practice and it started out okay and then tap totally sucked ass. And I asked her how the cramp roll turns go again. Because I don't remember and I just fake the hell outta them. She said something stupid about how I'll eventually get it and blah blah blah I don't even remember. I mean, she showed me, but I doubt it'll even help. Honestly, she taught it to us once, put it in the dance, and then never really showed us again. We spent one class time going across the floor doing them. And then the week after, I asked her to go over them again and in less then a minute, she showed us, and that was pretty much it. Ugh. I'll ask her if we can do them cramp roll turns across the floor tomorrow. Except we never do across the floor. Which is stupid. Because it helps. We did across the floor with Julie all the time.

UGH. I HATE YOU, AMY.

Good thing I have no contact with her outside of dance. Because I complain about her a lot.

I've been tired all day even though I woke up at 1:30,
Keegan <3

Moar le tired.

It's horrible. Honestly. I've been so tired. At least I get a three day weekend before I start up the new semester.

Finals went well, I think. Did I say that already in the post before? Ahem. Friday's finals went well. Except for civ, maybe. Heh heh... >____>;

JDRF walk at the Mall of America this morning. I woke up at 7. It sucked. Yay 5 hours of sleep...? And then after walking for an hour with Kate, and I had to go to ballet and my legs were tired and I was tired and it was no fun. I want a nap. But even though I'm tired, the walk and ballet combined make me feel like I'm not going to fall asleep. Haaaaaaate.

I watched Ghost Town last night and though it was good,
Keegan <3

I am le tired.

I got, like, no sleep last night. Friggin finals.

HOLYCRAPI'MDONEWITHCHEMISTRYFOREVARRUNLESSIHAVETOTAKEITINCOLLEGEOMGOMGOMGYAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

I WILL miss Spanish, though.

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Holy crap. I left this sitting here for like, 3 hours. Gahhh. I completely forgot about this. I am SOOO TIRED. CURSE YOU, FINALS.

I want to take a nap but if I take a nap now, I'll never sleep when I need to. ;;

I need some z's,
Keegan <3

Yesterday was a good day.

Despite Friday night kinda sucking (I took down the post about it), the rest of the weekend was good. We had a birthday party for me with my mom's side of the family. Saturday was filled with cleaning and such. As for the actual party...

Everyone got here around 4 yesterday. Lots of food. Judy brought fondue and that was goooood. So much hors d'ourves (sp?) and desserty stuff. Lol. Who needed real food? But it was fun. I showed Cri and Allie some youtube videos and we were on the computer a little. And we ate a lot. And Cullen and Claire were annoying as usual. And the food was good.

I got some awesome gifts, too. My mom actually still owes me a gift, since she didn't get out to go shopping for my actual birthday. (It was right around the time Dad got his surgery.) So she owes me an iPod dock. BUT ANYWAYS. From Cindy and Ron and fam, I got two really cute sweater-y things from Macy's. I guess when Cindy went shopping, she took Kristin and one of her friends with. So I had a 22 and a 23 year old picking out my gifts. WOO! I love it! I never would have picked them out for myself, but I liked them. From Judy and co., I got the CD "19" by Adele. Love it. Also, Little Miss Sunshine on DVD, this "would you rather" game and two nail polishes (mellow yellow and violet sparks). I actually painted my nail with the second one. WOO! From Jimmy and Michelle and fam, I got Wall-E on DVD (WOO!) and some candy. And them from Bobby and Anna and fam, I got Bath & Body Works stuff. WOO! Those products make me happy. OH. And these awesome fuzzy socks that are grippy on the bottom. And from Rick and Jodie, I just got $25, but that's fine by me because I could always use more money. (I totally just wrote dinero, but then I read it over again and was like, "Wow. That sounds stupid.")

And then after cake and stuff, I played Rock Band with Cori and Tommy and Spencer. Cullen and Claire played for a little, too. So Cori and Tommy and Just were her until, like, 9. Lawl. Allie left early with Joe because she wasn't feeling all that great. D:

So yesterday was supa fun. Then today... Mom and Cooper left around 10:45 to take him back to Duluth. I must admit... I do kinda miss him when he's gone. I mean, it's not too weird because I've been used to 4 people in the house when Spencer was at college, but he's back at home now, so instead of a family of 3, we're still a family of 4. Err... You know? And I actually talk to Spencer more that I talk to Cooper. But me and Cooper talk a lot more than we used to. And I'll miss hearing his guitar playing. That's one of the things I noticed after he first left in the fall. No guitar playing from across the hall. Oh well... I think he was wanting to get back around now, anyways.

So yeah. I need to go call Kate. We have to practice our jury today and I have dance tonight at 5:45. So... We need to get that figured out.

I'm hungry,
Keegan 3

I have been busy.

Which explains lack of update-y...ness... >____>;

And now I'ma go be more busy and study for friggin' chemistry! Yaaayyy!

...Not really.

I slipped on the ice today,
Keegan <3

[EDIT] Sleepover, my birthday, back to school

Okay. So I've been busy since I last wrote. My dad had his surgery on Friday and that went well. His arm hurts a lot now, though. But anywho.

Okay. So let's start with the sleepover for my dance team. It was AWSUMZ. It was at Shannon and Kelsey's house and it's a big house, so a bunch of the girls were like, "omgnowai." Of course, I'm used to it now because I've been over there a few times and yeah. We had everyone from the team there except Emily. So that's 7 of us. We started out playing Rock Band for a little. Then dinner (lasagna) and then we decorated our shirts. ^___^ Supa fun. We did black shirts/tank-tops/whatever and Christina brought pink puffy paint, along with two types of silver puffy paint. One was metallic and the other was glittery. So on the front we decided to write Just Jammin' with the pink in cursive, with a silver (glitter) '09 by it. That was hilarious. We're all sitting there like, "Uh... Who wants to go first?" 'Cause none of us wanted to go first and mess up. So we're all practicing on newspaper, like, "Does this look good..?" Finally Christina goes first when none of us were looking and that totally took the pressure off. They're all a little different, but they're awesome. We made one for Emily, too. Because that'd be mean not to. Didn't make one for Miss Amy, though, because, well... We all hate her. But I'll get into that later. So then we eventually end up watching Step Up 2. I lurve that movie! That dancing is AMAZING. So we're all really hyper aftwerwards and we get the great idea to make up our own hip hop dance. Omg. HILARIOUS. And really fun.

We didn't get too far, but then we all started talking about dance and how we should show Amy and she'd be all, "That's nice, now let's get to work." And THAT'S when we started complaining about her FOREVA. None of us really feel like we're getting better with Amy teaching us. Last year with Julie, I actually felt like I was getting better. Amy doesn't really push us hard enough. She doesn't even really do anything with stretching. Christina's been leading the stretching, but Amy never really gives us enough time. Like, Kylie was complaining about how we never do abs anymore. And everyone else agreed that we need to be doing them. Julie's warm-ups last year we pretty intense and I felt like I was being worked hard. And I LIKED that. Amy never really goes around and helps you stretch farther. And I'm pretty sure none of us can do open turns. Which isn't good. I know Victoria orginally said she would come in like, once a month and help us. She's been in twice. And those were the best days, I think. She works us, but I feel so much more assured and I feel like I'm working harder and getting better. One thing we said we should do is see if we could get Victoria in more often and maybe meet for extra practices too work on technique and stuff. Not with Amy. And if not Victoria, maybe Lou's daughter Lauren, because we know she'd work us hard, too. Because I know I want someone that will work me harder and everyone else does, too.

So anyways. We complained for awhile and we talked about a ton of other stuff that night. And then we went up to the play room where we were gonna sleep and got ready for bed and talked some more. So we were to bed by like, one or two. And then in the morning, Joan made Mickey Mouse waffles for us (that were actually shaped like Mickey) and we wrote our names on the backs of our shirts with the metallic silver puffy paint. We left them there to dry and Shannon and Kelsey gave them to us on Monday.

As for my birthday on Sunday.... It was AWESOME. Tori came over and it was supa fun. We talked for like, an hour after she first came over. And then we realized we needed to go busy. See, she needed photos for her photo class and I was going toI "model" for her. Lawl. We walked to Washburn and took pics on the playground. Super fun, but super cold after awhile. So we eventually had to cal my mom to pick us up. Then we promptly made cocoa and talked more. Tip for cocoa: To make it more chocolatey, melt something chocolate like a Hershey's kiss in it. We actually put a dark chocolate Dove in the cocoa. Yumm... We then made coopckaes which was supa fun. We made videos and I put them on le YouToobz. http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=C1D6E2D2A6306F8F

Then we played Pokemonz and I totally pwned her in the free battle, although she pwned me in most of the mini games. Or else the computer played pwned us. Lawl. xD And then she had to go... I'd talk more about it, but, well... You can easily see what we did by looking at the vids on le YewToobz. It was an amazing 17th birfday, though.

And then school started again after two weeks off for winter break. Blah. Not much to say. I actually missed yesterday. Headache-y feeling all day.

OH. And I suppose I should talk about dance on Monday night. Because there's a lot to do with Amy. I was totally being less discreet with my hatin' on her, but she didn't notice. It was... I dunno. Like, she was all (jokingly) saying she was a genius or something and didn't w get the memo? So I say something along the lines of, "Sorry, but no." And Shannon's just like, lol-ing at that. (Holy crap. I just turned lol into a verb. Although because I actually read as "lahl" instead of "laugh out loud" or a replacement for "haha," lol-ing actually makes sense to me.) So yeah. And just other stuff. And this one part none of us really like, I just commented on it like, "I don't feel like my leap is as good as it could be. I think the counts for that part are a little weird." To which she said I might not be getting enough momentum or something. And to which I mutter, "No... It's the counts." Luckily it was just loud enough for only the team to hear and not Amy. But yeah. I was being much more openly hostile to her than usual. Usually, I just try to fake pleasantness. I decided not to. Hmm.. Maybe she doesn't understand sarcasm? But yeah. Me and Shannon kept pretending to shoot ourselves, which made Christina lol.

ANYWAYS. I suppose I should stop complaining about dance. I love my team. The people are awesome! It's just... Our teacher sucks. And our formations are like, the exact same as Personalit Plus'. And their the younger pre-comp team. Which just shows that Amy has no creativity. And my mom was just like, "It's Victoria. Amy has to run it by Victoria." Uh, sorry mom, but it's not Victoria. Victoria actually helps. It's Amy who's making up the routines. Hell, we haven't even gotten to the end of them. Almost with tap, but I jazz? Hell no. So much for finishing them before winter break. Amy sucks at teaching. She actually taught herself something wrong one time. So she had to like, reteach herself (in front of us) before she could actually teach us. It was... bad.

OKAY. NOW I'M DONE COMPLAINING.

Other than stupid Amy, my life seems pretty peachy so far,
Keegan <33

[EDIT]
Lawl. I totally linked the wrong this. FIXED.

[EDIT] 2009!

Happy New Year!

My birthday is soon,
Keegan <3

[EDIT]
So my New Year's Eve was a little different than usual. Usually we have a big party at our house. But with Dad's broken arm, we cancelled it. My mom and I went to my aunt Judy's house. That was different, but fun. We fondued (Yes, I made it a verb.) and played Apples to Apples for over an hour. I pwned at it. I had 1o green cards by the time we were done. WOO! Besides fondue and Apples to Apples, we just hung out and talked and Allie showed off her art. What she's doing at Stout looks like SO much fun. The only thing is, she says there isn't the greatest English program there, which is a bit of a turn-off for me, since I like writing. Still, all the art stuff... That, writing, and photography. That's what my future college needs to have good programs for. *Crosses fingers*

ANYWHO. Didn't nothing today. At least, that's what it felt like. Can't wait for tomorrow, though. I've got a sleepover tomorrow at Shannon and Kelsey's house for our dance team. We're gonna decorate t-shirts so we'll have them for the lock-in before comps start. Although that's not until Spring... BUTOHWELLIT'LLBESUPAFUN.

Excited plz?

Dammit I still need posterboard for my project,
Keegan <3